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This Bank Corp Rejected ME

Friday, June 1, 2012
Now playing : Firework - Katy Perry, In my sanctuary

Yeah, this bank corp finally rejected me because I have amblyopia. It was almost final round, but my medical check up result reported to them and they rejected me. Okay, I can't blame my physical condition for this failing. It has been given to me since I was born. But unfortunately I realized about this anomaly a few weeks ago when I took medical check up. Not easy to realize that I have amblyopia because I feel my eyes still normal, I still can see clearly. Until I knew there is big difference minus between my right eye and my left eye (you can see explanation about this in my past post).

I already refused the offer from A*t*a, a big multinational company, because I believed I could pass this bank corp test (and I really did, except this medical check up). Then I refused two of IT consultant company because I still really believed I could do it. I took a lot of efforts to learn about banking thingy, I learned a bunch of things that I didn't understand but I tried because I wanted this bank corp so much. I always insert this wishes in my pray. And I refused my korea scholarship just for this bank corp. But God answered my pray with big NO, and He still keep the mistery cause his NO meaning literally no, or not now, or you deserve better than this bank corp (yeah, I believe this). Do I regret with all of my decision?No, because all of my decision that I took already I consider a lot. But as human, I have a nature character, I am frustated that this bank corp reject me just because my amblyopia, my blood pulse is normal, my cholestorel is normal, my ecg is normal.

But one that is certain is I won't give up just because I have amblyopia, I won't stop, I still fight and pursue my dream. I have a big dream (too big and too meaningful to be threw away) that need to be pursued. My day is too precious to be used just for moaning and mourning. Step by step I'll catch my dream. Thank you for my bumblebee that always there on my side, in my bad and darkest time. Although he has many ways and reasons to esacpe and to stay away from me, but he choose to stay on my side. Thanks to my family for always being supportive, y'all my number one supporter. Thanks for comforting me when I lost my grip.

This caterpillar still need more time to stay in cocoon before she turn out to be beautiful butterfly :)

Do you ever feel already buried deep?
6 feet under screams but no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
'Cause there's a spark in you

You just gotta ignite the light, and let it shine

'Cause baby you're a firework
Come on, show 'em what you're worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y

Baby, you're a firework
Come on, let your colours burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh"
You're gonna leave 'em all in "awe, awe, awe"

You don't have to feel like a wasted space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow

Maybe your reason why all the doors are closed
So you could open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will glow
And when it's time, you'll know

Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through-ough-ough
(Firework-Katy Perry)
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